It’s day one (again, might I add) of a forever journey to evolving my mental health from a jail sentence to a space of love, understanding, and safety. Many people don’t know I was diagnosed with a mental health disorder in the spring of 2021. I was not surprised by this diagnosis but more relieved because there was finally a reason behind my madness. I have attempted medication, but due to not partnering my medication regime with therapy sessions, I was highly inconsistent with taking them because I feared knowing what it was like to feel safe in my mind. You should probably listen when your psychiatrist tells you you also need therapy (she didn’t suggest it; she said I needed it). I thought I would come here with a master plan for navigating this, but that’s a disaster waiting to happen. Many times, I have become so overwhelmed by the bigger picture that I have become physically AND mentally unable to pursue it. I’m finally sick and tired of holding myself back from entering my winning season, so I am intentionally not doing things that will set me up for failure. Goals I want to accomplish this month: 1. Figure out ONE coping tool on how not to go 0 to 100 quickly in my relationships (platonically and romantically). With the understanding that I might have to travel to uncomfortable memories/experiences to truly understand the WHY behind my attitudes, minor (at least to me) blow-ups, and cutting someone off without explanation. 2. Managing my time to its total capacity while working (not limited to the job that pays me, but it is the priority on the list). 3. “Princess, you thinking small when you need to be thinking big. You need to be thinking big, Princess.” -Viral Internet Philosopher (IYKYK) *quote edited to be appropriate* Stay tuned for the next journal entry. I hope you come along on the journey with me by welcoming my weekly journaling-style post about what I have experienced and learned BY actively engaging in my post. I don’t want to be alone at the top when I get there! I openly accept your knowledge and sharing of your own experiences. I look forward to chatting! Love, Takeera

Posted by tsconiers at 2023-05-02 03:42:20 UTC